The Mind's Captive Thoughts

    The feeling inside me ballooned so large, and so suddenly, that I was under the impression that I may explode. I knew that it had happened, but the feelings had just set in. Reality had finally made itself present into my heart, and it almost overwhelmed me.     At first, I had judged it as anger. However, it became apparent almost instantaneously that this feeling that was overcoming me was a large, dull pain. It could be compared with being hit with a large item on the back. The impact is very real, but the pain is slower to come. But when it does, it consumes your whole body, and leaves you feeling almost numb.     A pain that is the result of extended denial, of a constant purposeful ignorance of the truth. Of telling oneself that it couldn't be, that you could continue to live the way that you are, and not have to doubt the trust that trust that was so hard to put into this person.     This pain consumed me, and for a second, I thought I was just give in, let myself

All the wounds around me The ones I try to mend Have taken a great toll And now they must end A lack of sense destroyed me I have done this to myself I have brought on my own demons In pursuit of something else I've lost my way to find you And it brings me great despair To say that I'm off track That my route now needs repair My kingdom falls around me I did not have a clue What will possibly save me And there was nothing I can do But now I see But my strength within me could never be enough But still I know for sure That I could never give it up Because... You're there with me No matter where I am Your strength, it fills me And no matter what I do Your love will guide me, and it will keep me safe The battle brings great trials, But it always is the same The battle is won The battle is won And with you It can never be lost Lost... Lost.... Not lost.... I find it so very easy To get myself lost in this place And this world

I gave a thought of you today It happens once in a while A distance has come between us That's kept you in the meanwhile. I hope that you are happy As each day passes by I hope things are well Though I don't know why You cut me from your life Pushed me to the side Though to be your friend Was all I ever tried. I never wanted this Never wanted the pain I thought we could be friends And keep each other sane All I wanted was to help To give my best advice But I didn't realize my boundaries Though I wish I could've recognized. Now, we're here, distanced Like the east from the west My worries and thoughts Locked in a chest Do I ever cross your mind?? That I do not know I only hope you leave room For me in your soul. So, as my fleeting thought takes its distance And I begin to let my mind travel elsewhere As I let your memory fade into my mind I begin to think on how I don't care Don't care if I'm there or not If I help to brin

                He strained his arms as he put all his might into pulling her up, the tightness of her grip almost breaking his hand. Only when he began to pull, did he see how far off the ground was from this cliff, and how very important it was to have made sure she did not hit the bottom. He looked into her eyes, and saw that panic and fear that were filling them, but he saw something else, and he wasn't too sure what it was.        He didn't have time to register it though. He could only think of making sure she was on the safe ground again. He raised up to one knee as he got her higher. He could hear the scratching of her feet as she desperately tried to gain a bit of grip on the rock wall right beside her. As he got higher, the scratching became less frantic, until at last she managed a foot on the top, and gained her footing back on solid ground.                  And suddenly, their lips were pressed together.           He didn't have time to think, had barely

O.k. Fact time. Some people should not be parents. I'm not being a condescending jerk and saying "stupid people" shouldn't be allowed to breed. I'm not dumping on people who don't have their lives together. Not having your life together works itself out with time and a drive to. No, the people who should not be giving birth and parenting are the ones who aren't able to let go of their childish ways, who are not able to mature, and do not care to. Those who disgrace themselves in public, acting like children, yelling, being dramatic, and being vulgar. Those who can't put their child before their friends. Those who don't understand what it means to UNCONDITIONALLY love their kid, and bring them up right! I don't care who you are, it is not alright to insult your child for the sake of humor around your friends. If you are willing to do this, then you aren't intelligent enough to recognize the lasting effects that you have on your child, and wh

"For you, the morning star shall rise once again. Bringing its light and warmth upon your face, casting the shadows to its wake, letting the light of the small stars rest. For you, its beauty will come in the east, after night has given its power over. And the birds will sing, and the air will smell heavy of moisture. And I will be gone. Yesterdays winds will have taken my body and mind across the   landscape.   It can not take all of me, however. Like the rain, the wind may move me to its will, but my effects will be left behind. Though the rain has stopped, and the sun has brought forth its light, the ground is still wet, the air still heavy. Though my physical being may be gone, myself does not need be dead to you. I only ask, as I leave tonight, that you keep me alive in your memory. I only ask that as I journey, I do not become dead to you, that my existence does not pass into the wayside. That what I have done here will have lasting effects, with you and everyone, like