A closer look from farther away.
It's just so weird how things work out.... I've lost myself in a deep thought. I feel disconnected to the world. So much has happened lately, there is so little I feel I actually understand. My perception of right and wrong has been beaten, wrangled, and metamorphosed so much that it has become unrecognizable. My thoughts have become almost foreign to me. All I want in life is to do the right thing, to make a difference, to make others happy. I want to do it right. Why must everything be so conflicting? Why must doubt pressure itself into my head every time I make a decision comes through my mind. I can't keep up. So much change, so much of what I thought was my foundation gone, so much to replace it. I asked so much for this, and now I wonder if I want it? Change is always welcome. Did it come too quickly? I feel like I excel at what I do, but am I even doing the right thing? Doing the wrong thing right is still wrong. I just... don't know anymore.... I really don'