The Mind's Captive Thoughts

I don't want to leave you But, I know it must be done I don't want to hurt you But it's time for me to run I don't know how to say it But I'll give it my best try I'm bad at being blunt But I promise not to lie You used to be a blessing Now you are a weight That holds me back from who I am And my long to be great I don't know why you've done this I've tried to figure out Why you have become What I want to live without I spent so much time trying Trying to bring you back Back to who I once knew To get you back on track Times I've tried to help you I've given myself Thinking that it could you Bearing through the rough Now I see the problem There's nothing I can do Now I see the problem Lies solely with you You don't want to get better You just want to feel bad That the situations around you Should only make you mad Now it's affecting me Your negative disease It's bringing me down too And with t...

"You want me to be happy, But I deny it everyday. Because I will not listen, There's a price I have to pay. Though I constantly try to fight it, You always know what's best, And it is to my great disgrace, I put You to the test. Now my sins are put before me, I lay broken at your feet. Humbled from my failures, I wish nothing but to grieve. But now I am forgiven, From sin I am now clean. Though I feel that I am filthy, In your eyes I am pristine. My Lord, my God, My Master You are faithful beyond belief. You sent your Son to die for a lowly wretch like me. All that I can do, it will never be enough to make up this great debt from the power of Your Love. So help me do my best to come as close as I can be to showing You I love You, praying that you will See. I give my life to follow And I know that you will guide Though, I always seem to fall You will keep me by your side."

Maybe it's time Time to try Time to get out And live my life. Maybe it's time Time again To see the light And forget my sin. I have fallen But now I see The burning truth Of what is me. I live to love It gets me through The hardest days That I must do. So now I go To find and face My demons and foes And remove their trace So now it's time Time again To live my life Devoid of sin.

It's just so weird how things work out.... I've lost myself in a deep thought. I feel disconnected to the world. So much has happened lately, there is so little I feel I actually understand. My perception of right and wrong has been beaten, wrangled, and metamorphosed so much that it has become unrecognizable. My thoughts have become almost foreign to me. All I want in life is to do the right thing, to make a difference, to make others happy. I want to do it right. Why must everything be so conflicting? Why must doubt pressure itself into my head every time I make a decision comes through my mind. I can't keep up. So much change, so much of what I thought was my foundation gone, so much to replace it. I asked so much for this, and now I wonder if I want it? Change is always welcome. Did it come too quickly? I feel like I excel at what I do, but am I even doing the right thing? Doing the wrong thing right is still wrong. I just... don't know anymore.... I really don'...

This is something that I have given a lot of thought about. The separation between church and state. Something that is fought over a great amount. To me, it is just a fear of conforming. Honestly, that seems to be what drives our nation into most of our actions. There are a great amount of reasons for this. Simple history. A people sent to colonize an unknown territory became restless with what their leaders were trying to implement on them. So, they rebelled, won, and, after many years of hammering out some very rugged details, finally collaborated enough to call themselves a nation. This nation is known as the United States. A heart touching story. The colonists, the people who could almost be called the rejects of Great Britain’s society, and the people Great Britain thought they had the most control over, said “No” and stood for their beliefs, and became independent of their oppressors. Now, however, arose an even greater challenge. Making a sustainable country for themselves. What...